Me and Trav.
I am fortunate. :)
Had fun on wednesday.

Trav somehow had enough to rent some big car (i think it was a Hyundai Tuscan) and i finally had the opportunity to listen to Saosin in megabass, in full blast! (It was so much better than listening to my fucked up CD player) Went to East coast for dinner after jamming with Screamm. It was so refreshing man, seriously. It was ages since i actually had dinner with a group of friends, eating like stingray, satay, lala, etc and bitching about all sorts of things. It was relaxing, compared to the tension i always face at home.

Got home late coz we got lost while sending Trav's colleague home. Serangoon seemed so foreign to Trav especially when he doesnt drive all the time. But it was fun nevertheless. I love car rides. Mum called and nagged coz i wasnt home. I told her my situation, that me Trav and a few friends were lost at serangoon. She still insisted that i made my way back home that instant. Ok, how do you expect me to head home when at that point of time we didnt even know how to get outta serangoon? Then she went on and on saying that my life was corrupted and it was a sinful lifestyle. All i wanted to do in my life was to enjoy it. I dont want anything to hold me back. I only have one life. I dont want to spend my life studying like mad, then go home after school, and sleep at 10pm. I dun wanna be someone with fucking no life. I know of people who are like that and, no offence but they are naive to whatever that is happening in this world.

I know that i think differently with my parents. I mean, its so obvious. With my friends, i can talk openly and there's no grudge, no barrier to whatever tat we can talk about. Because of that, no body takes you seriously and you just laugh and talk cock at it. We talk about sex all the time. We laugh about it and we share experiences. We dont think its disgusting, crude or whatever. At home, i gotta watch what i say. Im almost 21 and whenever i watch a show that happens to have a kissing scene, my dad will be like "Eva, cover your eyes". And when i was watching Miami Ink the other day, my dad was like "Is there nothing else you can watch?" I just wish my parents would fucking open up their minds!

So now im locked outta the house. Househopping and staying with friends. Honestly, i dont feel upset. I feel relieved because finally i have a break from my parents. When i go home, i feel tension and a barrier. When i go home, i walk into a home filled with nasty secrets. I wonder what theyd do to me if i told my parents i was gay. (If i were gay that is. But im not.) It'll be worse definitely. Now that im not home, i dont have to think about the shit at home. I thank God for giving me friends who really care for me at this point of time. They open their homes to me, pay for my dinners, and are concerned for me. I can chill out with my friends, talk cock and laugh without worrying that my parents would call and fuck me up.

Right now, im gonna study hard despite this phrase of my life. Exam's next week and i wont let anything hinder me from getting my dip. Will be staying at gayboy's tonight. His room rocks! :)

Thank you God. :D

Me and Trav.
I am fortunate. :)